I was silent a lot of last year. It was a big year and while I thought I was busy and didn’t have time to dedicate to my writing, I was actually busy avoiding dealing with what life had dealt me over the year.
Stress can be tied to many things and it’s not just the “bad” things either. My year was filled with planning a wedding, a new job/project, a move of home, a husband having back surgery, my mum having a stroke, an un-well cat and then just to top it all off, we decided to host Christmas lunch (and as it turned out, Dinner) at our place.
While ultimately, all of these things turned out great and Everyone is fine and well, I learnt a lot about my own fears. It was big and I didn’t feel I had time to dedicate to myself in 2016. Part of dedicating to myself is my writing. Believe it or not, each Monday Mantra is a derivative of my own life. Of how I’ve dealt with my real life “stuff”. It’s also how I work through it. So I’ve felt as unattended as my own website has been.
I’ve toyed with the idea of a resolution but it doesn’t sit with me well so I’d been looking for a word or few to be my focus for the year. It finally came to me, in writing the above paragraph.
For me, this year is about dedication.
It’s about dedication to the things I love and know will help me through life’s challenges. It’s dedication to myself. This year, I will put own needs as high a priority as those around me. I will not use others needs as my excuse for avoiding my own spiritual practices. I will not use the word “busy” to hold me back from doing the things I know my body needs for health and wellbeing. I will dedicate time and space for myself as a priority.
What are you choosing to focus on this year?