Journey of a Modern Mystic: A little time out

It occurred to me today that it’s been a while since my last post. This was not intentional at all but perhaps was needed.

You see, I’ve started a journey. It’s not entirely a new journey at all but it is definitely the first I have fully embraced as part of my energetically drawn self, my spiritual side, my intuitive side.

I’ve begun the Level 1 of Belinda Davidson’s School of The Modern Mystic (SoMM – see details and link below). While it was my intention to blog my way through this from go to whoa, I found myself holding on to this, just for me.

When I began studying Reiki and Tarot and Kinesiology, it was all about helping other people. Which of it’s self is a great thing, but when you do this at the expense of yourself and your own needs, it can get tiring, draining and very overwhelming. There are so many people to help!

So, when enrolled in SoMM, I decided that above all else, this course would be for me. Me first. I think that’s why I’ve found it so difficult to write a full post on the topic (I’ve got numerous drafts but nothing ever felt right to publish) because on some level, I needed it to be just for me. Perhaps at some point, I’ll be ready to share more of this journey with you all.

Right now, I find myself though compelled to share the fact that it’s okay to have something for yourself. Something that is for you. That’s not about healing the world, that’s not about taking care of everyone else, but simply about you holding space for you.

Yes, It’s easier said than done.

For me, I spend 35 minutes per day meditating (some days I don’t, some days I procrastinate which is just resistance but hey, I’m human). And then I spend a couple of hours on a Monday at the start of each SoMM module soaking in the course content and honouring each Chakra and each element as it arises. I give myself the gift of space and time to work on myself and the things that are important for me because without them, I don’t ever really feel like I’m 100% being my authentic self nor am I 100% present for all the other people and things in my life.

Start small. It can be as simple as 15 minutes you take out of your day to sit quietly and sip a cup of tea, just because you feel like it. It’s actually about honouring yourself and your needs and wants. Rather than running around the house thinking “argh, I have to get all this done before the kids get home” or feeling that being productive means getting things done and that’s more important. Sometimes, being productive means slowing down, taking a moment or 5 for yourself to centre back into being you again. If you feel good, you’ll get more stuff done anyway and you’re less likely to resent the things you have to do.

I officially give you permission to do something for yourself this week. Take a little time out for yourself, for YOU, for the fun of it, because you want to, because you deserve it and because above all, you are important too.

SoMM is the School of the Modern Mystic. It’s a self awareness, self love and spiritual practice. It’s a school where you learn first hand how your chakras work within yourself and your life. I can’t recommend it more highly. In fact, I’m also a proud affiliate because I love this course and what it’s meant for me and my life so far. If you’re interested in knowing more or would to know when the school opens, you can click the below link:

Belinda Davidson's School of the Modern Mystic starts September 29th!

Monday Mantra:: My Own Power Empowers Others

Monday Mantra My Power Empowers

I recently attended a workshop where I felt like I was finally given the permission I needed to pull the plug on some things that were holding me back and release the things, people and situations that were making me feel frustrated and unwell. I knew I felt this way with these things but I felt guilty because I spent all this time getting to a point where I could do them, where I could help.

I knew I had permission intellectually. I knew this. But I could feel my body holding on tight to the idea that I shouldn’t feel this way about helping that I should be putting other people first.

I paraphrase here but the words I heard were something like:

Aim for Amazing. Don’t go out there and do this work without tending to your own energy first. You’ll do yourself a disservice and you’ll do your clients a disservice not to mention that you’ll do the craft a disservice because it just won’t work if your energy isn’t right.

I felt my whole body relax for the first time in a long while.

Everything about the way my body let go and released is telling me that this information had finally sunk in on the deep knowing level. It was time to begin focussing on myself first before helping others. Knowing that it’s okay to cancel clients if i’m not in the right space so as not to influence or effect their sessions is beyond powerful. I finally feel like putting myself first is the best thing to do for other people.

I asked myself a few questions (see below) and I recalled a time when I was very fit and healthy and remembered how good it felt to be clear about what I wanted and be comfortable in saying “No” to certain foods or drinks or events when I didn’t feel up to it. It felt so good to feel so self empowered.

So let me ask you this:

Where are you putting others first when you know you should be putting yourself first?

When you put others first, how does it make them feel?
When you put others first, how does it make you feel?
If it makes you feel positive, what are you getting out of it?
What kind of help or support are you really giving them? Is it full, positive, present attention? or is it half hearted, semi-present, partially positive attention because your own energy is elsewhere?

When you put yourself first, how does it make you feel?
When was the last time you put yourself first?
How did that make you feel? How did it make others feel?

How can you gather your own power and energy so that you can better help others with theirs?

My Power, Empowers!